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I’m a bitch, I’m a mother, I’m a child, I’m a lover, I’m a sinner I’m insane, I do not feel a shame….

So…. you too sang the tune in your head while reading the heading. Cannot get this song out of my head the last two days. Pops up no matter what I’m busy with. Then it got me thinking. What does these words mean for me.

I am a bitch – when it comes to my children. If someone does them wrong in any way, a mother (not just this one), speaking for everyone here, will stand up for their children and sometimes one needs to bring out this monster. This is our motherly instinct in protecting our young.

I’m a mother first and foremost, but our parents (those that are fortunate to have them around still) will make sure that you understand, no matter how old you are… no matter how many children you have, we are still their children. My mother constantly let’s me understand, she is still my mother. She was the one that changed my diaper when I was a baby. She fed me. She helped me get dress in the mornings for school. Then I am like yea okay mom. I know, rolling my eyes at her. But she is right. We never stop being their children.

I am a lover – To my husband, yes first and foremost. But I am a lover of life as well. Embrace life is one of the biggest lessons that I’m learning. If one does not do that, we will regret it the older we get.

I am a sinner – Even if I have learned early on in life that I need to strive within myself to be a better person, we also know that we were created to sin. Why do I make this remark? Well, what joy would we have tasted if we did not work hard for something or work hard to improve ourselves and found that inner happiness and peace of succeeding in oneself and in life. Darkness was first and foremost first and then God created the light to chase away this darkness. We just can’t have that mentality of “O you know, I am still just a sinner and not perfect”. We need to strife to better ourselves.

I’m insane? Now why would I want to be insane? Maybe because that keeps us sane sometimes. The definition in the dictionary says, “in a state of mind which prevents normal perception, behavior, or social interaction; seriously mentally ill.” Well, we as human beings are sometimes not sane at all. We can lose it. I can guarantee that while reading this, you know somewhere, somehow in your life you went a bit insane. Whatever the definition means for you personally. We all have been there. We just need to figure out what things we need to keep in our lives to balance the insane with the sane out.

I do not feel a shame – The older I get, the less a shame I feel. What made me as a young woman feel a shame about myself, is just the opposite now. Why should I feel a shame of my family? Or a shame of where I live? What car I drive? What paycheck I bring home? Where my kids go to school? How flaming red my natural hair looks. How my body looks because I had 4 beautiful children. If we feel still any shame in what we have and look like, we need to STOP! The only thing we should feel a shame about is how we treat others. I’m not better than my neighbor. At the end of this life, we are all going to turn to ash and nothing we collect on this earth will we be able to take with us. NOTHING!!!

So, my message for the week is, be the bitch to protect your children from harm. Be the mother you always wanted to be for your kids. Be more a child for you parents, because you don’t know how long they will be with us. Be the ultimate lover to your spouse or loved one. But be the lover of life as well. Sinners we are, but strive to better yourselves and lastly, stop worrying and feeling a shamed of what your bank account says or what you look like, or where you come from and rather feel good about who you are and concentrate on doing good for others.

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