Gratitude (Day 2)

I’m grateful for the food on my table tonight, the family around me and the laughs we shared today.

Now, getting into the feeling of gratitude is already a bit challenging for me and I know why. By nature I think ahead. Always. I don’t like surprises. Don’t want to be caught off guard. So, only getting into the feeling is hard enough and now I still need to express it. How the hell do I do that??

I’ve downloaded an app on my cellphone to help me each day with this challenge. Makes it easier. Puts a lot in perspective. Brings clarity to many things. Helps me focus. One of the books on this app I’m reading at the moment is called, “The Science of getting rich”by Wallace D. Wattles. In this book it says, “The whole process of mental adjustment and atonement can be summed up in one word : Gratitude. He explains how it works in one easy sentence. “the mental attitude of gratitude draws the mind into closer touch with the source from which the blessings comes from”. Also what is very clear is that gratitude has no time for competitive thought. It only works well on creative thought. That creative wave is the big wave you waited for and need to ride out until the end.

Online schooling started today. Me still being at home during lock down I’ve become a teacher now too. Please tell me where the waves of gratitude should be crashing here inside me? Today was not as good as yesterday. My gratitude feelings was a bit low. Now that I’m sitting again in front of my laptop I can clearly manifest this feeling. It’s easy. It’s actually effortless, but when I’m in the moment busy with something that can be more unpleasant or more challenging, it’s then that I just seem to ignore the feeling. I need to figure out a way to get on that gratitude wave there and then and sees the feeling. Need to figure out a way that works with me.

Look, I know that trying to stay positive all the time can be a load of crap some days. Then again, they don’t call it a challenge for nothing, now do they.

I’m keeping it short and sweet today. I definitely need to do some more reading.

Today was out of 10, maybe a 3 for me.